Hi all,

First off, if I've posted in the wrong forum my apologies. I've only just registered and still finding my way around but as a first glance this seemed to be the most logical forum for my thread..........

Basically I'm a 35 yr old bloke, who has until the last couple of years been okay fitness\health wise. Nothing exceptional. Prior to my 30's I would say that I was above average fitness wise, after spending some time in HM forces and then working in physically demanding jobs, even after getting an office job I was still playing football 3-4 times a week. Health wise I suffer form Asthma and have been hospitalised twice int he apst couple of years for a couple of day each time, I don't smoke or eat junkfood or fried foods. I don't go for the "full English" any more as they make me feel sick. So diet wise I feel that I'm doing ok. I do like to have a drink and don;t want to have to go tee total as it won't work.

Anyway the past couple years have seen me struggle with depression and I have lost a lot of the enjoyment I used to get from playing sport and just generally exercising, to the point where I now avoid going to the gym and doing any kind of physical exercise. Back int he day i could motivate myself to go running, gym etc, etc. But I know now that the things that worked for me in the past aren't working for me now. I'm a t a point now where the choices I make now will impact my well being when I'm older; If I stay as I am i'm looking at health issues later on. So what I want to do is get back to some level of fitness, but for the first time I don't know how to get there - I lack any real kind of motivation to do anything even though I can visualise what I want to do.

At 35 I know I won't have the same natural fitness I had in my 20's and nowhere near the power I had when i sued to run. That said when I have tried to run recently it's been like trying to run in quick sand - very disheartening. I guess the point is I need to set realsitic goals. I know the gyn is probably not going to work for me, but I have found that I enjoy swimming.

I guess what I want to ask is how the hell do I moativate myself? I've tried to focus ont he health aspect but I seem to have no drive and focus to achive fitness, paradoxically, when I have been to the gym in the past 18 months or so I have found that I can reach and sustain a level of intesnsity for longer than I could at 25.

I hope this hasn't rambled on too much and at least makes some sense. I would welcome any thoughts or comments that you may have.

Thanks for reading.